няшей быть сложно, но я стараюсь
I am really unstable right now. I'm close to panic, I can't sleep, eat, think or even listen to the music. Really I want to scream and just forget about everything and about everyone. Especially, about Almir. I really start to hate him.
Today I went to my faculty. Nothing is bad, cause really my life will last for decades and I wouldn't worry about such tiny things, really now I rethinking everything and eagerly want to go to Germany for one year by Erasmus Mundus. Pleas I really will work hard for this, pass all the tests. I need it! 
Germany 2016, I have to be there. It will be next stage in my career and I will shape my vision there, I should try to change everything. The things I need to place in my head.
As I told yesterday "В Турции ничего не конец света", all the things could go worse. Just enjoy what you have now.