няшей быть сложно, но я стараюсь
The things happening around me have to stop. The first thing is about my future-relating plans which I ready 200 times per day to cancel and send far to the ancestors, cause the more I pond about them the more unstable I became. All right, life is beautiful but why only for a short time. The last few weeks I have uncontrolling attacks of fear and anxiety. I can't hold it, this overwhelming emotions tire me out. Or it's better to not think, I have to stop worrying and toss everything up and let them take right places. The second thing is that I have to find courage to begin working, even if it is the hell as unusual for me and puts me under pressure
What the hell I suppose to do in my life. Me I am young and beautiful and smart, but why the hell I am so invulnerable and un-confident in myself. I'm flushing I don't know anything in this life, I am the person who needs to be given the spare time to rethink own mistakes and fix it. I know now for 200% there is no second chances, no time for wasting and resetting every possible situation. But I am about to lose control again, I'm loosing my harmony. And these voices in my head. Gosh, where is the simpleness which people should be gifted by ages.